Farewell Camera

After staying up all night working on my project, I started my new day- which I still cannot mentally separate from yesterday or before yesterday- with a lovely morning drive with my lovely friends to get colouring markers. And then we drove to my little sister's school for her 'end of the year' party, as she got on stage she freaked out, but it was adorable. After getting some fresh air, I got back to work, but with a friend this time. Thank you, Tala for helping! Still haven't finished yet as I upload this, but I must be when I upload tomorrows..

That was the regular part of my day, but then I had this awful news.. I had broken my camera's lens a while ago, and I was told that if it needs to be fixed then I'd have to give away the whole camera and get a new one instead of it because that's what the warranty certificate says...

To people, what is better than a brand new camera.. but to me, it was the hardest decision I've ever made... I've been delaying this for months now, and today was my last chance...

With a deep ache in my heart, I put my camera apart and packed it back to how it first came for me...

The memories I have with this camera makes it more than a camera... it's my vision, it's my companion, it's my best friend. it has been there for me when people couldn't. It understood me and became a part of my body.

For the past 2 years, that camera has not left me for a minute. I always carried it around no matter what.. and now I had to let it go. and I was selfish enough to let it go, greedy enough to let it go.. for good.

My camera was not just A Camera.. my camera was my everything, and even if I get another one, same model, same colours, same specifications, same everything, it would be a great brand new camera.. one which isn't mine.

I sealed the box closed, wrapped the insides with bubbles, placed the box in my favourite plastic bag, with my fingers crossed that I have not sent my best friend to trash.. I hope it ends up with someone better than me, more loyal than me..

I don't know if it's possible to miss 'things' but I am sure that I'll miss it everyday..

it went but it's memories will always remain.. <3

That's all for today..

So much love.. Peace.

Panic Mode: On

I didn't have much sleep tonight.. or maybe I have but its timing was off haha. I slept from 8 AM until 1 PM. Woke up and headed directly to my assignment. sat on the chair and I still didn't get up. I watched the world change from the window,  my family coming and going, guests came and left, and I'm still in my place. I haven't yet finished half of the work. my submission is after tomorrow at 8 AM. and I'm still in the drawing process, I still have to scan the drawings and edit them and add sound.. Oh God..

The only thing that changed today is the food I have had on the table haha. And I had a lovely visit from basboos, as she figured out I'm dying of boredom, and I believe she loves coffee as much as I do haha.

I have also found out that my cousin has made a new line of her own. She designs some awesome handbags and sells them. here is the link.

if you are a bag lover you'd love this! she'll be having it in english soon, but you don't need to speak spanish to understand, cause I don't and I was able to go through the website.

Music wise, I'm back to my senses, listening to Bullet's new song all day.. I'm just in love with it.

Matt's hair makes me sad though.. his long hair used to be the best ever..

That's all for today..

So much love.. Peace.

Final Project

Been a very chilled out day.. all is going well. The stress is gone, listening to calm music, drinking hot coffee, working on the balcony of my room, cold breeze blowing, drawing the future..

My doctor guided me to this awesome artist after I told her the idea of my final project, and I think I'm in love with his work! he's called Makoto Shinkai.

And I'm totally in love with Passenger's Let Her Go

Tanya Burr mentioned it in one of her videos and I can't seem to stop listening to it..

That's all for today..

So much love.. Peace.