Rise

Do we, as humans, ever reach satisfaction?

why is it that we think every day: I wish I had..! I wish I could..! Why don't we just think: I'm grateful I have.. I'm grateful I can..

why can't the simple fact of waking up in the morning with a blanket over your body, with a roof over your head, with a family outside the door be enough to make us smile? to make us wake up happy?

why do every small and worthless thing get us upset, and makes us feel like: 'Nah, I don't want to get out of bed today'

who is happy in this world? Why is the answer 'no one'? why can't we be happy?

Does money buy happiness? No, millionaires commit suicide every day.

Does fame buy happiness? No, celebrities go downhill and become addicts every day.

Do fit bodies buy happiness? No, most model and fit people end up either anorexic or addicted.

Do friends buy us happiness? Maybe sometimes, but we end up fighting and hating our life for months before we recover.

Does family buy us happiness? Mostly, but the pressure of keeping them happy, safe and proud isn't easy and it leaves us torn out most of the times.

Does religion buy us happiness? It's the closest answer to yes, but not 100%. unless you are a very true believer which is very rare in our community.

Is happiness achievable in this life?

If we stop chasing it, will we get it then?

Went out at about 2 am today with my sisters and friends to pick up Suh'or, the shop was closed so we drove around until we found an open shop which we happen to really like, picked up sandwiches and cocktails and drove back home, had a lovely time.

And, look what I received!! I mentioned this a while back, and my friend got it for me today! I'm so excited!! Bummer, I have to wait a whole month to listen to those tracks... But I have the necklace and the bracelet to enjoy meanwhile!

First Day of Ramadan

Every first day of Ramadan I set up goals for myself, stuff I decide to do and stuff I decide to quit doing.

When I was little, I was listening to music in the holy month, and suddenly I felt something in my stomach, I felt something in the bottom of my heart, this feeling that tells me: what you are doing is unacceptable. And since that moment I have never listened to any song during the holy month. And I have no reasonable explanation for that because I wake up from the early morning on the first day of Eid with a list of songs people told me about or songs I've missed and I play them all. Quitting in Ramadan never helped my addiction to music. But I just know that the day I listen to music in this month and not feel something wrong is the day that I have gone in a wrong direction, the day I'm getting way far away from the road to heaven, which I'm still trying to get to.

This Ramadan I want to pray 8 Tarawih every day, and I'm aiming to read the entire Quran Insha'Allah. It's just fascinating with you to think of this hadith:"Whoever reads a letter from the Book of Allah, he will have a reward. And that reward will be multiplied by ten. I am not saying that 'Alif, Laam, Meem' is a letter, rather I am saying that 'Alif' is a letter, 'Laam' is a letter and 'Meem' is a letter."

Just think of the enormous countless number of rewards! And think of how much we need those because let's face it, we are all so far away from being the best Muslims, and if any reward is that easy to get, one letter counts! think of how much it is if it was the whole entire Quran.If you read twenty pages daily, that's the Book of Allah done by the end of the holy month. Think about it. Why not? Are you that busy?

And may God give me and your strength. And I hope that I have inspired any of you to do any good deed. And may Allah bless you.

Our Music Makes Me Proud!

I was super excited and they did awesomely! the dancers and the musicians, all in all, it was a lovely little concert.. got me a little bit back to Jerash!

didn't have the chance to check the Bazar though, spent my time photographing and for nothing, the lighting suck and where I was sitting didn't help much... but anyway...