Missing You

Somewhere along the way, Eid stopped being a happy occasion.

I sat in my darkroom thinking, why did our only holiday lose its essence? And what was it that made it happy before?

The answer I came up with is my grandma.

After she passed away nothing stayed the same.

It has been more than a whole year and I still can't get it in my mind that she is gone, I keep on thinking if we go to her house she'd be sitting there on her favourite spot, watching TV.. when she sees us her face would glow and she'd smile the most peaceful and beautiful smile I've ever seen, she'd tell us her jokes and we'd laugh until we cry.. and in a bit, her house would be full, hectic with the whole family that we'd fill both the living rooms and the younger people would still have no place to sit.. but we'd be happy, we'd forget about everything for a while and just enjoy the happy Eid.. but that's not what's happening anymore... I just wonder how long it will take us to adjust...

I woke up to my mum saying that they are going swimming, and that's how my day started, and then nothing happened until the very end of the night when we decided to go out for dinner, and it was the yummiest ever!

After we filled our tummies we went over to our friend's house, and I barely convinced everyone to take a group photo! But I did get them all together!

That's all for today..

Back Again

I'm sorry for not posting anything during last month. But that's how I am; I either do it as good as I imagine or not do it at all. And throughout Ramadan nothing happened at all, I had the routine of waking up, wasting time, having iftar, washing the dishes, resting, praying tarawih, watching movies and series, preparing suhoor, more series, sleeping. So you see nothing was worth sharing. And on a side note, I was going through some rough days because of fights with friends and so on, as well as the fact that when I am alone with nothing to do I think way too much, and me thinking too much can never be good for anyone.

With all that said, today we celebrated the first day of Eid.

I woke up very excited, not because of Eid, but because I was gonna force myself to start fresh, forget about everyone that made me upset and have a whole new start.

I was energetic, so I decided to prepare breakfast for the family, I made vegetables omelette and pancakes, both dishes I've never tried doing before, but they were edible for the first time.

And then we had a couple of Eid visits from my grandparents and uncles, but that didn't last long. And we had nothing to do, and nothing sounded better than taking photos!

At the very night, we left the house very hungry and headed to a restaurant to have dinner.

And that was pretty much the end of day one.

If you are constant readers of my blog you'd know that I don't listen to songs in Ramadan, so that was the most exciting part of the day, unwrapping the new Skillet album that I received on the first day of Ramadan.

Here goes my favourite song:

Thats all for today..

Since Forever

It's such a blessing to be raised between religious people.

It is the most effective thing, society. People you spend time with do affect you and your lifestyle, even if it was without notice. And as much as I think I haven't changed, I look back a few years ago and I'm a totally different person. Somethings have changed for the better, some for worse.

Since the day I was born we spent time with this group of people, and as much as we don't agree on stuff, we all have a kind of strong faith that keeps us friends, forever.

Looking at us today, and those traditions and atmosphere that we have created and got used to, it's very comforting, and I know that without those people I wouldn't be who I am today.

As I have mentioned before, our family is used to going to the farm every Friday since the day I was born, and today was no different. We had iftar and then chilled a bit, Tarawih prayer and then we had fun playing and joking around.

Unfortunately this week has not been very interesting and there is nothing much going on those days, I'm just sitting at home doing a lot of thinking, a lot of decisions, a lot of self changes, and so I have decided to take this month off. I will be back shortly.